abrandnewday4

Sat, 08 Mar 2008 06:04:17 GMT

happy birthday.

Thu, 06 Dec 2007 05:24:06 GMT

I want so badly to believe
That there is truth, that love is real
And I want life in every word
To the extent that it's absurd

Fri, 27 Apr 2007 21:09:31 GMT

see you in a few days people.

<3

fucking stupid people.

Mon, 16 Apr 2007 21:10:04 GMT

http://www.cnn.com/2007/US/04/16/vtech.shooting/index.html

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 22:32:42 GMT

there is nothing better than spending spring break listening to bright eyes and limbeck and silversun pickups, watching random-ass movies throughout the day, sleeping in until 1 or 2 in the afternoon, and watching silversun pickups videos on youtube.

:)

thank you for listening, i hope you all have a lovely day.

i get to go to dennys tonight.
<3.

ps.
bailey:
3rd song listened to. :)

Sun, 01 Apr 2007 08:02:26 GMT

I made it out in darkness and the sun rose over the desert
I could have gone forever with just me, and gas, and states and kodak
Everything was string-less like it's debtless and between jobs
I don't ever want this to pass I want to get that feeling back
To escape somehow find that way out get out get out
Crossed over the line and into places I have not been
I never felt so welcome with just me and not a single contact
Everything was silent like the fake still air in a snowfall
I don't ever want this to pass

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 03:05:44 GMT

i think that there is a possibility of spring break being amazing.

...
or i could get arrested...

Wed, 10 Jan 2007 07:09:17 GMT

and so today is a very lovely day.

RIP.
<3

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 00:39:50 GMT

it's been one fucking hell of a year.
i can't wait to see what happens next year.

happy new year everyone. :)

it's totally never gonna happen. but it's worth a shot.

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 06:31:32 GMT

In the year 2007 I resolve to:
Not lose any pencils.

Get your resolution here.

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 04:24:43 GMT

"what is that?! it's pointy and it hurts! OH! it's a deer antler!"

Mon, 06 Nov 2006 01:51:27 GMT

it just.. hurts so much right now.
the pain in my heart has returned.

ugh.

i've found so many songs today that have made that pain even worse.

She Wants Revenge is just. made for being sad to.

_

Late last night I was looking through pictures
Flooded with memories I lied on the floor
And spread them around me like friends at a party
There faces remind me of all that I've known
Still I can't forget

all the hush.
All the fiction and lies and the tears and the laughs
Take a walk through the past you and I hand in hand
As we looked at this thing called us

Late last night I was pacing the hallway
Reading the letters you'd signed x and o
I turned out the lights in the and imagined you with me
I tried my hardest to cry but it just wouldn't come
Still I can't forget

all the hush who it was
All the fiction and lies all the tears and the laughs
Take a walk through the past
You and I hand in hand
As we look at this thing called us

All the hush who it was
All the fiction and lies all the tears and the laughs
Take a walk through the past, you and I hand in hand
As we look at this thing called trust

Omgomgomg

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 19:14:03 GMT

Ryan reynolds almost literally ran into me and then stopped and smiled at me. Then rachel weisz walked up next to me to talk to the people working there. Oh my god is she pretty. Oh my god

Oh my god

Fri, 27 Oct 2006 03:52:37 GMT

Ohmygod. Howard mcgillin has the most amazing voice ive ever heard in my entire life. It made me shiver. Wow. And im vowing to never hug anyone ever again. Last person i ever hugged is michael shawn lewis. Look at his and howards pictures on google. *dies*

Sun, 22 Oct 2006 05:15:59 GMT

1. If you could talk to one person for the rest of your life, who would it be?
someone i know.

2. If you could hug one person for the rest of your life, who would it be?
see #1

3. If you could kiss one person for the rest of your life, who would it be?
see #1 and 2

4. If you could eat only one meal for the rest of your life, what would it be?
grilled cheese sandwich

5. If you could listen to only one song for the rest of your life, what would it be?
your guardian angel - the red jumpsuit apparatus

6. If you could listen to only one artist for the rest of your life, who would it be?
i don't know.

7. If you could read only one book for the rest of your life, what would it be?
it's kind of a funny story - ned vizzini

8. If you could take only one class for the rest of your life, what would it be?
english with my current english teacher.

9. If you could visit only one place for the rest of your life, where would it be?
anywhere in the world to see #1,2,3

10. If you could do only one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
Love and be loved.

these new songs you find out of nowhere are the songs that make you content

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 00:22:48 GMT

i found this new band that is like a horribly wonderful mix of Bright Eyes, Death Cab, and a bunch of bands that sounds like that.

plus it's british.

and it sounds fancy.
and completely and utterly depressing.
with techno mixed in.

well.
it's techno for at least this song

I am the tragedy
And the heroine
I am lost And I am rescuing

The storm is come
And I am following

My name is Tristan
And I am alive

Forever young
I come from God knows where
'Cos now I’m here
Without a hope or care

I am trouble
And I am troubled too

My name is Tristan
And I am alive

Sorrow by name
And sorrow by nature
Working for joy
On overtime

Stuck on a line
Of misadventure
I fear no crime

I am the victim
And the murderer
You speak of love
But I’ve never heard of her

I am fucked
And I am fucking too

My name is Tristan
And I am alive

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 23:46:14 GMT

fucking hell.
i'm seriously pissed off.

the one band i've really wanted to see for months. like. almost half a year... is here. tonight.
they'll probably start playing in maybe an hour or two.

then on friday they're 2 hours away from here.
then on saturday they're 6 hours away from here.

then next friday... when i'm in new york.... they're playing in new york.

i can go to none of them.

goddamnit.

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 05:35:57 GMT

i, as a person, suck.

and i've realized so many things about my life in the past day it's not even funny.

i should stay up all night more often.

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 08:57:59 GMT

i just spent the past two hours of my life writing the second most emo thing i've ever written.

well.

no.

i don't know.

it might be the most emo.

but.

there was less feeling behind this than there was with the other thing.

i feel really sick now though.
and i have to wake up in 2 1/2 hours.
and i'm still not tired at all.

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 05:57:38 GMT

is it bad that i don't feel like going to sleep?

i just want to skip ahead several years of my life.

or at least find a psychic more reliable than miss cleo to ask just one simple question.

edit (1:22am):

haha.
the last time i watched that movie was like. either june 16th or august 16th in theatres.
it made me cry even harder this time than it did last time.

edit (1:40am):

dude.
seriously.
who needs sleep?

edit: (2:04am):

god i love the songs they put in this show.
they put this amazing woman's song in there that has issues and it's amazing.

edit: (2:06am)

i have a really bad headache. and i really want to go to sleep.
but
i can't.
because i slept lots.

to you, if you ever see this. you should know who you are.

Fri, 13 Oct 2006 05:18:13 GMT

thank you.
from the bottom of my heart.

_

When I see your smile
tears roll down my face
I can't replace.

And now that I'm strong I have figured out
how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul,
and I know I'll find deep inside me, I can be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

It's ok [x3]

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and stars are falling all for us
days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Cause you're my
you're my, my
my true love
my whole heart
please don't throw that away.

Cause I'm here, for you
please don't walk away and
please tell me you'll stay, stay..

Use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and I know I'll be okay
though my skies are turning gray.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven.
(repeat)

__

take that however you wish.
but.
it means nothing more than what i said to you tonight.
and i will be forever grateful for that.

hahaha

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 04:56:12 GMT

watch it.

i'm about to go screw up my life some more.
probably within a day.

just wait for it. :)

__

All the girls pose the same for pictures
All the boys got the same girls' hair
I am bored 'cause I feel much older
Look at me, as if I got a reason to stare

But you talk so loud
that it calms me down
You're crying "lets make a toast"

She says she's leaving on a Sunday
That leaves me one more night
Can I take you home?
I know it's wrong
but I know you're type
She says she's leaving on a Sunday
and I don't care.
I need to know where to turn
I tried it once
it never caught on
I was the only one who got burned

I've read every word you said
from a poster of a cat
Four books look across your sofa
I thought your coffee table
was more clever then that

It gets worse once we get to her room
as she stops and she sings
"Doot do do doot do do doot do"
I claim "new religion" is my song.
She doesn't get it
it's all before she was born

And you lock your door
Like I've been here before.
I feel like I've seen a ghost.

She says she's leaving on a Sunday
That leaves me one more night
Can I take you home?
I know it's wrong
but I know you're type
She says she's leaving on a Sunday
and I don't care.
I need to know where to turn
I tried it once
it never caught on
I was the only one who got burned
I was the only one who got burned

Suddenly between sheets and eyelids
I am reminded why I don't do this
I fall in love far too quickly
I never want her to forget me
When you're gone
Will you call?
Will you write?

She says she's leaving on a Sunday
That leaves me one more night
Can I take you home?
I know it's wrong
but I know you're type
She says she's leaving on a Sunday
and I don't care.
I need to know where to turn
I tried it once
it never caught on
I was the only one who got burned
I was the only one who got burned
I was the only one who got burned
I was the only one who got burned

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 23:11:03 GMT

View Poll: Nerd Camp

please thank me someday. i'm just trying to help you.

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 06:14:54 GMT

step one, you say 'we need to talk'
he walks, you say 'sit down, it's just a talk'
he smiles politely back at you
you stare politely right on through
some sort of window to your right
as he goes left and you stay right
between the lines of fear and blame
you begin to wonder why you came

where did i go wrong?
i lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness
and i would have stayed up with you all night
had i known how to save a life

let him know that you know best
'cause afterall, you do know best
try to slip passed his defense
without granting innocence
lay down a list of what is wrong
things you told him all along
pray to god he hears you
and pray to god he hears you

and where did i go wrong?
i lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness
and i would have stayed up with you all night
had i known how to save a life

as he begins to raise his voice
you lower yours and grant him one last choice
drive until you lose the road
or break with the ones you've followed
he will do one of two things
he will admit to everything
or he'll say he's just not the same
and you'll begin to wonder why you came

where did i go wrong?
i lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness
and i would have stayed up with you all night
had i known how to save a life

where did i go wrong?
i lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness
and i would have stayed up with you all night
had i known how to save a life
how to save a life
how to save a life

where did i go wrong?
i lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness
and i would have stayed up with you all night
had i known how to save a life

where did i go wrong?
i lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness
and i would have stayed up with you all night
had i known how to save a life
how to save a life
how to save a life

:) the songs that remind me of her never cease to find me

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 18:30:25 GMT

Forgive and forget,
It's just a memory,
It wont get me very far this time,
Is what I've done to you unforgivable?
Silence fills the room and I get the message,
Emptiness is all that's left this time,
Is what I meant to you that forgettable?

Better than, better than me of course,
You're always right,
You're always I'm at fault,
Better than, better than everything I've done for you, cause now you can finally sleep,
Can you smile too?

I took it as a threat,
You meant it as the doctrine,
Of everything that was and would become,
I don't have to ask,
You don't miss me at all,
You made it so obvious, when you slowly walked away,
And then I prayed in vain,
I would've traded everything, even for just a taste,
I'll live with the loneliness,
But I'll never forget,
I was never your best bet,

Better than, better than me of course,
You're always right,
You're always I'm at fault,
Better than, better than everything I've done for you, cause now you can finally sleep,
Can you smile too?
Now you can sleep, can you smile too?

Can you smile now that I'm gone?